What do you want me to do?

What should i do? What do you want from me? Ain't i nothing good for you? I've tried my best to compliment with you but why things just never work out between us? You asked me to do this and that, complained me for not doing this and that and lastly i did according what you expect me to do but what's wrong again? Why i just can't stop you from nagging? I can't stand it anymore. I do not want and do not wish to think negatively too but why am i just getting the alert from you that i'm just nothing good from the others?

Mom, i really love you all so much. I know you are stress from your works, i know i'm useless today that i still need to get pocket monies from you, bothering you to bring me to lrt station for train, keeping you excuse to nag on me to wake up early to finish the housework before going out for school and this and that.

You ask and wish that i can come over to KL with you, get something for myself to learn while recovering my health, you said you and brother will take care of my expenses, all i need to do is concentrate on my course. Sometimes, i'll think i shouldn't have trust you all and chose to come over. I should have know much earlier that i have problems staying with families.

You nag at me that ppl's daughter knows how to fill up their time with part time job to earn their own extra monies and all i know is just stay at home sleep and eat. Previously, i'm really new with KL, i'm not familiar with KL route, i do not know where to find and what kind of job to find for a part time job. Today, i get an offer which i am proud that i was highly recommended by my teacher (makeup artist) for an 11 days part time job in 1 Utama (45 mins drive from town) with high paid too. (RM10/hour). I am so happy that i at last got my first part time job (a good beginning) but ends up i was being asked and screw by you for accepting the job so far away and i have to skip my class for a week just because of the work and yet not so much money earning. What do you want from me? What have i done wrong to fullfill your requirement? You expect i earn RM100/hour? better to have the job just down stairs our condo? or runding with the boss that they have to follow all my needs instead of i follow theirs? Is there everythings perfect? I just can never be trusted by you..never..nothing that i done been appreciate by you.

Palace of the Golden Horse

I was frustrated this noon when my mom insisted me to join them (mom, uncle and his family) for high tea where i don't feel like going (not because of not wanted to eat but that's the only time where i can use my mom's pc freely). Once again without warning my mental pressure came, i could feels my tears flowing not under control, feels so exhausted for a fresh air and wanted my freedom so badly. I was staying alone indepently and freedomly when i got my first job till the day i decided to come to KL but now i was like back to my school time, being control, taking pocket monies and doing housework (i'm fine for doing housework as im need to stay in the same house too).

However, i'm there with them for high tea too at a hotel name "Palace of the Golden Horse". Wow!! thanks god, at least the renovation and scenery of the hotel worth my tears. It's a six stars hotel with arabian style renovation and antique/ classic material and also decorated with lots of horses of course which match their title. They have expensive mosaic, high ceilings decorated with horses pic, wonderful ballroom, classical dining area and huge garden covered with lovely grass as if staying in ancient castle. I think this hotel has a history of at least 10 years and above as per my uncle. Although it was still nicely maintain but..haha..i accidentally found a big rat hole on one of their window frame ops...hehe that's why i always said nothing is perfect.

(HIGH TEA MOMENT)

Nice dining area isn't it?

has Jerudong lost a horse from the "Marry go Round"?

Lots of century eggs, my best friend (patricia) favourite..

Full plate of salad, vege and fruits good for health ya..

Kueh tiaw soup

It's tired after a late sleep yesterday and early wakeup to get myself ready for my nail practical test today. I reached home at 6pm + after accompanying my cousin who came from miri to have a short shop in Sg. wang and are real lazy to prepare to cook (chinese dishes) for my mom and i. So, to be easy all i can find is just enough ingredients for a kueh tiaw soup. It's quick and tasty..hehe look nice kan? it taste even better haha

Judimar Harnandez

I saw her. Yes, i really saw her personally.

My favourite judge (8tv, So you think you can dance), JUDIMAR HARNANDEZ. Even her name is cool right? I really adore her..she's like angel. If anyone of you ever watched her show than i think you'll have the same opinion as i do.

She's natural pretty. She's generous. She's gorgeous. She's friendly and as well as environmental friendly too.

When she judge, her comments are short yet powerful. The wording that she used are not irritating instead of supportive and comfortable, but that doesn't mean that she's not professional. Is just that she knows how to comment those participants in easy understanding and self-confidence way. As we all know everyone wish to find more self-confidence in others to prove their ability in order to do better. No matter how bad we are a little self confidence from others really means a lot and she did it in a right way. It's psychology prove.

346 days

Yeapy!! After 346 days i finally got my hair straighten back. Guess what? i've not combed my hair ever since the day i curl it. haha.. sounds disgusting? but i wash it everyday la.. Anyway i've almost forgotten the pleasent feeling of combing hair and im so glad now that i can comb it everyday from now on hee.. :D

For the length of my hair, i suppose to spend at least a RM200 in order to straighten it but instead i've only spent a RM80+ for it. Cool (",).

Thanks to my lovely cousin Ms. Miko for being so king to give a hand. Even though she had just graduated from her hair course with only a few months experiences but her passion towards hair definitely lead her to a better future. (Kambateh biao mei)

So friends out there...any comments for my new hair style? Do i look nice with my hair straighten or curl? Do i look like a little girl in my early teens? haha... By the way, just for your info.. surviving in KL is real costly. I've spent RM40 just to trim and wash it yesterday and was still thinking if i would want to dye some colour to brighterup my look but...talk about PRICING better forget it sigh....